This month was hard. I can’t and won’t pretend it wasn’t. But I also can’t and won’t pretend that I haven’t been learning, loving, receiving love, and growing into greater measures of mental and emotional health, to the best of my ability. Loss is hard. Change is hard. Processing so many things at once is hard. But we don’t have to do it by ourselves. We can’t, and we don’t have to.
Here are a few of the little things that managed to ride along with me.
- Vance Joy. Everything by him. The man can write a poignant, innocent, intimate love song. His album “Dream Your Life Away” is such a great work; “Straight Into Your Arms” was particularly special to me this month.
- “Jumpsuit” by Twenty One Pilots. A highly anticipated comeback I didn’t know I’d care about as much as I do. These guys create such unique and meaningful things that make me want to be passionate with them.
- “Bad” by Lennon Stella. The lyrics capture a feeling that’s hard to put into words– still loving someone who hurt you, because before they hurt you they actually loved you well. I’m obsessed with the way the music is modern and has a strong backbeat, making it feel less victimized and more observational. And her voice is so cool. Basically she just nails everything in this. “I wish that you woulda treated me bad; truth is you couldn’t have loved me better. Now I’m left feeling twice as sad…”
- “Just For The Record” by Lucie Silvas. Insightful lyrics I needed sung over me.
- “Little Things” by One Direction. Sweet and cozy. And I know it’s a little old now, but I didn’t have a 1D phase so I didn’t know it before; sue me
- “On and On” by Christ Church Manchester Music ft. Jake Woodward. Warm, dreamy, comforting.
- “Out of the Blue” by Fleurie. This song was special to me from the moment she released it; it honestly shocked me just how much I loved it and felt connected to it. She creates such consistently lovely things, but this might be my new favorite. Gorgeous and heart-meeting in every aspect.
- “Storehouse” by The Gray Havens. I love everything these guys do. Even when it has a more somber vibe it is still always uplifting. Their work just feels very safe for my heart and I appreciate it so much. I’m into this new single.
- Andrew Belle’s version of “Fade Into You.” It’s like something that would be playing during a slow dance in a gritty teen movie, and for some reason I cannot get enough of that vibe.
- “no place like hope” by Zachary Knowles. A chill jam I had on repeat for days, complete with buttery voices and a melancholy sweetness. “You’ve been trying to figure out true love; you’ve had it all from the start.”
If you want all of this music in one place, I’ve made a playlist! It’s on Spotify and on YouTube. I use it all year, so scroll to the bottom for the newest additions. [Some of this month’s music was only available on one platform or the other, so unfortunately neither of the platforms have the complete list.]
- Ant-Man and The Wasp. Y’all know I love Marvel and see every movie they release as soon as I can. This movie was no exception, but I admit I wasn’t as excited for it as others (especially now that Infinity War just has me waiting in agony for part two); however– it was so good! I laughed a lot, I gasped a few times, and I screeched at the end. Super enjoyable and a good contribution to the Marvel universe.
- Ocean’s 8. A fun film with a stellar cast. Also, blonde Sandra Bullock slayed me, I wasn’t ready.
- “Hilary Duff Plays With Puppies While Answering Fan Questions.” A lot of love for our forever big sister.
- “Natalie Portman Tries to Keep Up With a Professional Chef.” Gold. Also I want to cook with Natalie Portman now.
- Won’t You Be My Neighbor? I don’t watch documentaries that often, but the theater I work at was showing this one and I had a free afternoon so I was able see it. I grew up watching Mr. Rogers, like many of us did, and learning more about his life experiences and the mindset and heart he brought to his work was inspiring and uplifting. I legitimately pulled a notepad from my purse and wrote down a few lines during the film because they struck such a chord. If you get a chance to see it, I say do it!
A bit like last month: I didn’t have the time or the brain power to read very much. I’m hoping that soon I’ll be in a place where I’m able to catch up on some of the books I’ve stuck bookmarks in. Until then, I’m on Goodreads if you want to see my reading updates in real time.
What fed you this month?