83 Hopes I Lived in 2019

Writing lists of things to look forward to is one of the most prominent ways I build my joy. It started when I couldn't see life holding anything I wanted. In order to quite literally save my life, I had to turn what I hoped would happen into what I was looking forward to happening.…

Soul Food {December 2019}

The year is over and I don't even really know what I think about it. I've been feeling a bit depressed and stuck lately, if I'm honest. But it's nice to look back at what has changed this year and see that I'm never actually stuck; things are always growing and good always comes around.…

Soul Food {November 2019}

I've had a feeling that things were shifting around under the surface of my life, even when nothing was really happening yet. Now I'm starting to see it, and to figure out what I'm going to do to contribute to that shift. One of the most intimidating and exciting things I've learned is that there's…

Soul Food {October 2019}

This month was absolutely insane and I enjoyed most of it (haha)-- trips out of town, housesitting for almost four weeks, the five-birthday week in our family (including mine), a pumpkin patch day... so much life. You know that speech Julia makes in Mission Impossible: Fallout where she says, "I love my life"? I think…

Soul Food {September 2019}

I'm typing this the day before it goes up, complete with a Kleenex box to my left and a mug of lukewarm tea to my right. If you were to ask me what I did this month, I'm not sure I could tell you much; it's foggy. But I know I grew. I know I…

Soul Food {August 2019}

Sometimes, things arrive for you just in time. Other times, it's time to make things happen. And maybe always, it's a bit of both. I had a lot of both this month, which required a lot of trusting in that process. What's for you won't miss you. If it comes on it's own or if…

Soul Food {July 2019}

I think our bodies remember anniversaries. I think that even when we don't consciously think about something that happened around this time a year ago (or longer), we still somewhat react to it. Science is actually starting to reveal that there's truth to this. I've definitely experienced it this month; July was so rough for…